I have spent the entirety of today thinking about us, about the mysterious more, and about the things we actually deserve. Today I came to understand that the relationship we have may be entirely in my mind. I came to realize that your experience of me, may be an entity in your mind that is completely and totally different than what I see. This is a strange idea to me and I find it both intriguing and terrifying. It really is all down to perception.
About perception: I can tell you some things, here where I don’t think you’ll ever read them. My perception this morning as I ran errands over rock city hill to the opposite side was at least temporarily of us together. You home when I arrive from work and you only mine. The regular-ness of life and daily living was a balm to my soul. Even in my imagination, you are the spark and the flame, the drive and the vehicle, the love and the reason. You are someone, no the only one, who I would run to come home to, yet push away and set free, and happily await your return at the end of the run. I would give an arm and a leg, if you didn’t like those two things to be beside you. And the absolutely only reason I have not taken steps to move myself closer to this goal is respect for you and your choices.
“Even when these choices negatively affect me. I will back you in them. And this scares me about myself.”
But whether my imagination has run away with me, or if you and I are in the same opsition, I will wait for you, I will fight for you. I will spend every moment I can with you, and work to spend even more.
I am desperately in love with you.
Never Ending Love Letter 